How many achievements have I got?

This year’s achievement was……….

  1. I start a business. I continue to work as a employee and become a entrepreneur this year.
    It is said ninety percent of entrepreneurs will fail in five years, and ninety percent of successful entrepreneurs will fail in the next five years. I know it is difficult to continue my business but I’ll be able to learn something important for life. ***Yes. This year I’ve started a business.
    I live with my boyfriend. I’ve got tired to live alone, though I think living alone is comfortable. I’d like to live together and sometimes quarrel with him. A problem is that I don’t have any boyfriend yet.I stop sticking to my past. ***No. I still live alone.
  1. I earn ¥8,000,000 a year. I’ll earn ¥10,000,000 a year by 2020. ***Not net
  1. I save 3,000,000. It needs money for a deposit to get real estate. ***Yes. I sold two studios this year.
  1. I go abroad twice. I’ve already scheduled to go to Sydney in Golden Week holidays. I’d like to go to Taiwan in autumn.
    I need trip to enjoy myself. ***No. I went to Taiwan once this year.
  1. I take financial education. It is necessary to avoid bankruptcy. ***Not yet.
  1. I stop my extravagance. I must make a deposit. ***Not yet.
  1. I help my friend’s business. I introduce her to customers for the expansion of her business. ***No. I didn’t remember I had this achievement.
  1. I hope my colleagues’ health and happiness. I have to work seriously for them. ***No… Of course I hope their health and happiness, but I didn’t work seriously.
  1. I thank others for their kindness every day. ***No. I’ll try the next year.

I wish she had spent happy life

Yesterday I visited at my friend home in Nagano by car. She was my friend from college but I hadn’t seen her after graduation. Recently I heard she had committed suicide last year. Her ex-boyfriend got shocked and asked me to visit at her home together. He had dated with marriage in mind but finished with her before their graduation. He knew she had attempted suicide at college before and he protected her from suicide. As he enrolled at the graduate school, she couldn’t stand waiting for marriage until his graduation. She married with the other man as soon as her graduation and lived in Nagano.

I suppose, he felt he might protect her from her suicide if he had married her. I’m not sure if she was unhappy. I came away with the feeling that her husband was a good man and he regretted that he couldn’t had stop her suicide. Her suicide hurt many people. Probably she had been hurt by others for years. However nobody noticed her pain.

The cause of her suicide remains a mystery. We can’t solve the mystery forever.

I’d like to believe, she’d done everything she could, so she has no regret.