Miracle Morning #69

Today I got up at six.

I don’t want to be bound to money. Time is limited. I feel I’m always pushed for time. I work hard for money. I earn for squandering on money. I’m not sure if I help someone. I have to change my life.

Miracle Morning #68

Today I got up at quarter past six.

Yesterday I went to the geriatric health services facility to see my mother. She told she was going to the police office. She has got angry that her daughters entered her into the facility and blamed that we didn’t live with her to take care of her. Furthermore she reproached her husband repeatedly. Now she can’t take care of herself and someone has to take care of her all time. If she lived in my apartment, I had to quit my job. We would not be able to live on if I were out of work.

She stays in a dementia ward. Her roommates looked more comprehensive than her. She knew she couldn’t walk. But she didn’t know that she couldn’t stay at home alone.

Miracle Morning #67

Today I got up at seven.

Last night I went to see a building offering for five hundred million yen in Minato Ward. The building was unsold because it had low profit. If I was a great business owner, I had the building giving 20% discount.

Miracle Morning #66

Today I got up at quarter past six. I slept well last night.

I’d like to take my mother out to see cherry blossoms. But I haven’t got any transport. She enters into the geriatric health services facility where I have to walk for twenty five minutes at the nearest station. It is difficult to pick up a taxi. But I’ll try this weekend.

Miracle Morning #65

Today I got up quarter past six.

I’m thinking about my mother. I still remember beautiful young mother. She was active and always busied herself with work. I depended on her. Now she depends on her daughters. She couldn’t change her dress by herself. Before she went into the hospital, she lived alone and went to the hospital every day. Now she can’t take care of herself at all. Probably her dementia has progressed in the hospital. She is my future. But I don’t have any children to take care of me.

Miracle Morning #64

Today I got at quarter past six.

Yesterday my mother left the hospital and entered into the geriatric health services facility. We moved there by taxi. First she was excited which interesting place she would go. However, when she looked fields out of the window, she made a lot of noise. She told us she’d like to go back to the office and go to bed. When we took her to the facility, she asked us if we stayed there together. We replied “no” and left there.

I felt a pang of guilt that we took her there. But she can’t take care of herself any more. We can’t take care of her all day.

Miracle Morning #63

Today I got up at six.

I often lose my senses. I have to control my feelings. It is my challenge this year.

Today my mother enters into an institution in Saitsma. She’s never lived in Saitama. Probably she doesn’t satisfy she has to move into the country. But she can’t live alone any more and we can’t take care of her all day. It can’t be helped.

Miracle Morning #62

Today I got up at six. Last night I argued with my sister by LINE and had nasty feeling to her.

When I was a child, I liked her very much. But how did she think about me?

Now I am not a six-year-old girl. I don’t have to fawn on her now.

I still like her and I wish her happiness. I’d like to make my sister and mother happy.

Miracle Morning #61

Today I got up at six. I didn’t have a fit of coughing last night.

Yesterday I found an article about minty years old man. He told his regret in his life was that he gave up to play the violin. He’d like to start playing the violin when he was sixty years old but he gave up because he thought it is too late. If he had started at the age, he could play it for thirty years!

I’m always looking for something lacking. It is good excuse for resignation.

I’d not like to regret in my life.

Miracle Morning #60

Today I got up at seven. Because of cold, I canceled my schedule.

I do my visualization during miracle morning every day, but I don’t feel my dreams will come true. They are only desire for me.

I’d like to start a small business this year. The business helps for the elderly like my mother and I wish my business brings us happy life after we get old. But I haven’t had confidence yet.